i find that its so much easier to connect with people and things that have some sort of trauma that they dealt with or are still dealing with. when i say im into Sad, i mean it all around. sad people, sad movies, sad stories, sad memories, sad situations, sad everything. there’s something about ‘Sad’ that draws my attention. probably because we have a lot in common. i find it hard to forgive and forget, my entire life consisted of letting go of people that hurt me and learning to understand that sometimes it was not my fault. its sad to say goodbye when all you want to do is start over and make amends with your past self. but a part of growing is realizing that it is ok to let go of things that are not helping you prosper. maturing is realizing that it is perfectly fine to be sad after making the right decision for yourself. im so used to making choices that are best for the people around me because i dont like hurting people. i like sad, but i dont really like the emotion. i really dont like feeling sad or seeing others sad. a big part of the reason i chose to be in the medical field is to do the exact opposite, in fact. my goal is to facilitate the lives of others, to make it easier for them to live a happier and healthier life. so i ask myself, if im so determined to make life happier, why cant i do the same for myself? it took me a long time to answer that question. no, really, a long time. blaming myself for the mistakes my parents made taught me a thing or two about self love and how essential it is. but there is no guide that teaches us how to love ourselves. none. nada. no guides. you are expected to write your story and make the right choices regardless of the fact that there are no resources. how is it that these are the circumstances, yet we question why people harm themselves. we look down on people who end their lives, but can we really blame them? there is no “right” way to live. im a graduated student going into her second degree, and still cannot figure out if im doing the right thing. why? because there is no such thing. whats the point of plastering my college degrees on the walls of my future home if i dont love myself in the process of it. so many wealthy people die unhappy with their lives, its all Sad. we are sad. i am sad. you are sad. perhaps not emotionally, but we are sad because improving ourselves is challenging and not many can do it without any help. its okay to embrace Sad. but we need to love ourselves if we ever want to do better in life, i would give you tips and advice on how to do this but even im still figuring out how to love me.